My analgesic.

2010-12-05T00:58:00.003+08:00

I think i need a new start to leave this all behind.
I think i will be gone.

it's not like anybody care..
i think no one will even cry if i die now
but it will be fake if they cry at my wake..because you dont fucking care how troubled i was before, so why the fuck cry only when im dead...
i just realize when im in trouble..i couldn't call anyone that is in my contacts
those that i called up on made me regret..almost immediately.
im deleteing everyone from my fucking life..so if you happen to think of me someday coz you are in some kind of trouble.. try fucking yourself, thank you very much.
i dont even know whats the meaning of friends now..
aren't they suppose to care for you? how come they only come to you when you look fun and happy? fucking selfish useless bunch of shitheads.
i don't need all that in my life.
i will be alone.

im having dinner with me
shopping with me
soon i might catch a movie with me too..

why do you bother to check?
how about you fuck off!

2010-11-29T19:45:00.001+08:00

2010-11-25T01:32:00.000+08:00

2010-11-25T01:10:00.002+08:00

Why i like to stay at home.

home haz the golden liquid.

Choya is now my favorite alcohol

i cooked myself a plate of myojo 100 with bacons and meatballlzzz!!
:D

2010-11-23T00:23:00.001+08:00

2010-11-21T23:26:00.000+08:00

weekends breakfast

yup..compiled all the breakfast i made over the weekends
don't have the time to make and enjoy breakfast on school days..

*screams* bacons!! drippy watery yolk!!

scramble egg with cheese on toast complete with a mini swissroll.
i like my swissroll cold. real cold and solid kind. Mmmmm

2010-11-18T00:44:00.001+08:00

fruityyy pebbbbbles!

2010-11-14T22:48:00.002+08:00

Sunday night flick: Edward Scissorshands

i lost billy

2010-11-13T16:27:00.007+08:00

Hi matters of all form..

today..is a really sad day.
Samantha was sure that her life as a normal girl was over.
Her sister gave her rude stares, her bunny clawed on her still fresh opened wounds she got from the same bunny. Her tooth ached so bad she couldn't swallow or chew any solid food that will comfort her. Her mom forbids her to take chocolate or candies. Her friends is sick of her talking about the guy that will make everything better. everyone wants to talk, everyone likes to have fun... then when trouble comes..everyone scatter away. She woke up from a terrible terrible dream. She have to go to school and to face this world that she so hate.

im not sure if this is the life i want. No, im sure this is not the life i want.
it's not gonna change. i couldn't change it.. it's beyond my control.
all i really want is be with you... all you really do is go away.
and all that can make me feel better is going away.
you are going away.
i don't know how to accept that.
i can't accept that.
but this time is real... you are truly gone.
belong to someone else.

what am i doing?
why am i just standing there waiting for what's gonna happen next.

why must your face appear in my life.

2010-11-12T23:50:00.001+08:00

the day started out really bad with me missing my bus.
and he was in it.

after that ..the day was not spent in school but with my BFF and wen.
we went shopping..and later met wen for a late lunch? at Marche.
and above is what i had.
Cream asparagus soup with focaccia bread(some bread with herbs) and Baileys tiramisu.
the dessert was perfecto.

and as if i got the appetite after knowing my ex-true love was attached.
i just carried on and bought two buns..

he had me in love with him..so in love until he decided to date a squash twisted fruit half rotting face. idk. totally no more respect..and was ashamed.

okay that's not words of bitterness or whatever, its a fact.
an unacceptable fact.

im glad im still alive and i walked out of it.
bye, you mistake.

2010-11-12T23:35:00.002+08:00

smoking out all the memories.

had sticky chewy on a sad day like this didn't helped at all.
i have accepted it and moved on..

Daim candy chocolate.. the last packet i had was from someone...that don't even remember me..
i won't keep this harmful memories anymore..

say hello! to gigantic toblerone :)
i prefer the dark one though..

2010-11-08T00:48:00.005+08:00

Caught the movie : You again.

it provoked memories from my bad high school life.
i was really agitated throughout the show. hahaa..
i hate bitchy cheerleaders/female bullies..it's official urghhh.

Caught the movie: Paranormal Activity 2
yeahhh~ i think better than the first one.
shots of the day:
just my desserts..Andersen's blueberry cheese cake and icecream waffle.

amused me..Daniel's $100 note.

Caught the movie: Jackass 3D
AWESOME! UBER GROSS AND HILARIOUS!

what's next?
Megamind 3D!
DUE DATE!
TANGLED.

2010-11-07T23:54:00.003+08:00

Sunday : P.S I Love You.

my tears like free flow.
the beginning of the show is already heart wrenching.
you meet the perfect man that loves you perfectly..and he's taken away. Forever.
he love you so much that he left behind some letters for you to get you back on your feet.

p.s. i will always love you.

2010-11-01T13:57:00.005+08:00

Next

on my movie marathon
im gonna watch :
The Notebook
~~27 dresses~~
~~The Ugly Truth~~
(i really love Katerine Heigl!! also from The killers..she is sooo funny!)
~~The proposal~~
Sorority Row
P.S I Love You
~~Couples retreat~~
Love Actually
Brokeback Mountain
Julie & Julia

yes, alone.
anyways uhh..i used to only watch movie genre like comedy, cartoons! , adventure, thrillers and violence. lot's of violence!
but now there's romance.
i never like watching romance in the past.. i think it's boring..
but i do now..i suppose this small changes are good..it makes me somewhat a softer person.

i cried when i see happy endings..i also cried when the ending was terribly tragic.
i cried for lovers that got together...and cried for the ones that shared the same plight as me.
funny.
i don't really like the new me.

2010-11-01T03:11:00.001+08:00

2010-11-01T02:53:00.001+08:00

HI

BYE

2010-11-01T00:45:00.000+08:00

Feeling Halloween.

2010-10-27T01:47:00.002+08:00

Movie Night.

loving my new hat!

2010-10-27T01:27:00.003+08:00

because im crazy about frozen yogurt..i freeze my regular yogurt and sprinkled some frootloops for toppings.

i like it sour..with sweet crunchy toppings

whatever that makes me happy? it's all temporary. all i can think of now is you.

2010-10-14T00:57:00.003+08:00

Gorgeous
even without makeup.

2010-10-13T23:30:00.003+08:00

is there anyone out there that is willing to have dinner with me everyday?
coz i don't wish to dine at home with my family. they upset me badly and most of the time i end up not eating.

sigh~ i guess i might as well skip dinner. should just jog off my dinner time.

2010-10-13T23:07:00.004+08:00

imissyou
it's been a year
and it's still remain so clear

breakfast with you..
regrettably it's our first and last one though.
"something is wrong with you. You're a chicken, you've got no guts.
You're afraid to admit to yourself and you are always running away from your feelings. It's okay to fall in love, it's okay to find happiness. You built yourself a cage
And the cage , it's not bounded ,it's wherever he goes, the cage follows. Because no matter
where you run, you just end up running into him."

one day you will get yourself someone new..and that's the day i feared the most.
but that will also be the day..i come to terms that you are really gone.
you will always remain special.

2010-10-12T19:29:00.002+08:00

i really dread going to school.
reallly!
and this is what happen during my hols...

i worked as a Braun promoter..
ya can you believe it.. Samantha is working as a promoter? selling man's shaver ?? -.-
the pay is sucky/miserable..not to mention the environment.. okay..i will just say its a torture.
not that i have to face nasty colleagues like the ones i experience in the PREVIOUS banquet line.
everyone was really nice..but on the job we are not suppose to chit-chat and like we must stand the whole time..plus because im selling no ordinary shaver..it's a shaver that can cost up to 500bucks..so you know the folks around here won't buy such a luxury shaver right?!
so what im trying to say is... im always waiting..waiting for break. waiting for 9pm so i can go home!
fucking hell..and the day passes very slowly..with me dying a little every second.. I HATE TO WAIT. I HATE TO WORK LIKE THAT.

I rot at home..
I pretty much enjoy doing nothing ..i feel relaxed and happy by myself/or with the company of my bunnies.
then my parents walked in to the picture. They can easily rob off my will of living. they are the reason for my tears. They nag..especially my dad..saying im freeloader/leeching on them and doing nothing.But what else can i do..i worked as a part time promoter already right? im just a student..i got no savings..i got no where to go?! what he want?! then sometimes my mom join in the fun..and one of those days i couldn't take it..i tried to end my life.. i couldnt die.. i cried. i got myself all bruised. my knuckles were all crushed.. from hitting and banging the wall to sort of release my anger.. and when i calmed down i started crying again because my hands were all swollen like there's huge humps/bums popping out everywhere and my head hurts after banging the wall and it also hurts from all that crying.. i cried so much.. my whole head/eye area/throat aches. i got like three huge bums popping out of the left side of my forehead lor. -.-
i didn't know i did that to myself.
im only bloggin it down now coz...im rather calm and neutral now and i figure no one will read this. plus..i pretty much need to note this down somewhere to remind myself what my parents did to me.

I spend time with Boyfriend.
i totally screwed up his 21st birthday for a dick i barely know. so i figured i do a good one this year..
i feel like i need to do this. i ganged up with his brothers , although im mostly the one doing everything.. we organized a BBQ party for him. Got him a couple of awesome birthday presents. A black full face helmet,DC shoes and a Monster cap.

I totally forgot about school, my PP report etc
i don't want to be reminded of school. so i never check the school website..
and i don't know whats/who's my classmate i don't give a fuck. i hate to go to school i hate making friends.
and guess what? school starts today..and i was not aware.. LOL
i was on my way to collect my new bunnies. i even plan to go iceskating.
which in the end..i didn't coz i don't think i wanna go back to kallang leisure park ever again.
i rather wait for Jurong's skating rink to open. Kallang's.....pathetic.

ok so here's what happen when im supposed to go to school.

collected my baby bunnies
Chino & Shiro ^.^

This is Chino and the white one is Shiro.
i love them equally, ok :)

awwwww... so adorable!! and they are very docile and obedient.
unlike Fatboy.

After that we dine @ Ma Maison
my all time favorite.
their food never fails to please my palates.

Clam Chowder.

his beer..
*gags*

he was telling me something about the waitress not knowing how to pour the beer correctly. lol
with all that foam.. hey i know how to pour it right ;)

ahhhahaa a not so polished Lee Min Ho hahaha!
okay luh...got resemblance right?
sometimes he look like Pierre png hahahaa!!

okay ya luh!! i think too much.. but one day when he become fairer , under go lips reduction and orthodontic treatment he confirm look damn shuai one!
must believe me!!
aiya hurhur hur..the thought of it ..makes me so excited!

okay back to food.
this is his

and this is mine.

always taste sooooo goooood.

Bought my dark chocolate from Ch0c0late Research Facility

i took the 72% one as i like my dark chocolate to have this sweet after taste.
i think what's special about their chocolate is that they have this various funky packaging design for different types of chocolate..and the store's interior looks interesting.. like cheat you to walk in..other than that.. Cadbury's old gold can easily replace their dark chocolate.. Cadbury is a cheaper choice too.

Dessert @ Swensen's

and before he send me home............we,
took some pictures of coz.

do i look pissed?
well..i was... haha.

right..so after tonight i bid goodbye to my hols.
holidaying days are officially over :(

warning: vulgar.
and one last thing.. you probably think it's appropriate to end my sentence with FML
but i really get annoyed by people who start or end their sentence with the word fml..
i get very annoyed.
annoying fathead: i stepped on poop.FML
Me:Fuck My Life? you really inviting me to do that?
you really want me to fuck the fuck out of your life? i fuck you upside down left right. you fathead.

(fathead is just a random person. plus it sounds funny to me..don't mind me..probably moody because of school.)

don't fml fhl fyl .. you FFF.. ugh.
there you have it , 3 straight Fs.
fucking fuck face. and FO , fuck off.

2010-10-12T19:24:00.000+08:00

Welcome Chino & Shiro ♥

2010-10-11T21:01:00.002+08:00

Thai Food.

it's burning outside..it's so hot and humid i could melt and die.
but still.. went ahead having lunch at an Authentic Thai restaurant.
was craving for the Phat Thai seafood noodle!!
i am loving Thai cuisine ever since that time we dine at the Far East Thai restaurant.

today we tried green curry ..it's got generous amount of ginger in it..gives of this really rich strong flava and it's reallly green..as you can see the tomatoes and chicken were all greeen. lol
yummy luh.

my Phat Thai seafood noodle... i upsized it.
nom nom nom!

Dessert.
i always thought this is a cold dish...and was surprise it was served hot.

.............i will never be the same.

2010-10-09T17:42:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIEL!!

@ PowerHouse.

god..look at me
i was probably high from alcohol. damn. Birthday boy still fine.

i don't even know what we drank..all i know is it's jugs after jugs of it and i was close to wasted.

im starting to love this ... weird.
i never once liked clubbing until recently..
i cant dance i cant move..but i like it.

Powerhouse very own Lady Gaga.

5 am @ PrataHouse

starving!!!

2010-10-08T03:56:00.004+08:00

Feeling pretty today.

and it's been awhile since i whored around with camera.

2010-10-08T03:29:00.003+08:00

Experimenting

Risotto

yeah..it's reallly risotto although it looks like a damn fried rice.

not bad for a first time

Chocolate pound cake

fail. -. -

Apple Cinnamon muffin batter.

2010-10-08T02:53:00.002+08:00

♥♥♥♥

2010-10-02T09:50:00.000+08:00

Breakfast. ♥

2010-10-02T00:16:00.002+08:00

Looking forward..

Trying out the Grilled mushroom risotto recipe and apple cinnamon muffin later.
excited! it's been quite sometime since i step into a kitchen and get greasy..

Can't wait to bring home my newly adopted bunnies! they are like cuddly balls and just super cute!
but im worried my parents will object :(

next coming weekend..and

my payday.

sigh..the only thing im not looking forward to is school reopening day. i dread going to school.
fuck RP. :(

2010-09-28T21:57:00.001+08:00

Had a great time ♥

Lunch @ RamenPlay
interesting name ... but the food was just so so.

my favorite poison is the stir-fried chilli chives ...fragrant and tasty.

his Unagi hot pot..

and my spicy rameun .

ugh! it's so hard to snap pictures with this lame iphone! maybe i should invest on a good camera?

see it's so hard to aim and focus while trying not to lose/find the snap button..so frustrating..

Daniel got this ring for me..and i love! it.
similar to the ones in the recent Donnie Yen flick, whereby the Japanese use it to punch the chinese.
im gonna use it to punch whoever that piss me off. :)

have been wanting to visit this place!
for their tea and cakes of coz.
The place looks quite posh from the outside and it really attracts me..

i thought, if the ambience is that good..the food couldn't be that bad right?

but really.. the food wasn't as flattering as it looks.

couldn't resist and ordered this Lasagna that cost $20 and it's garbage.
horrible. -.-

i was really disappointed.. maybe next time i will drop by to get a bag of my favorite tea?
yes..just the tea leaves..not even gonna have it there..
desserts are very important to me.. and they serve shitty garbage. ugh!and that puts me off.

love this picture the most out of the lot we took.

2010-09-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

2010-09-27T16:27:00.001+08:00

Hi.

2010-09-27T16:13:00.003+08:00

I ♥

banana, peach, strawberry, macadamia...........

2010-09-26T23:38:00.002+08:00

Hot Stuff

it was late and i wanted to watch Legend of the Fist starring Donnie Yen.
and i did.
omg he look so good even in moustache ♥

now my mind is full of him... -.-

2010-09-24T16:36:00.002+08:00

Fatboy hates to bathe..

he looked so pissed..
but he smell so good now :)

im busy.... touching

Mimi the groomer's bunny ..
she's a lion head.. so i guess Fatboy, which is a lop ear won't be interested.
i thought i can make them fall in love.. LOL

2010-09-24T16:31:00.002+08:00

@ Ikea

but didn't get my meatballlz
had salmon instead.

finish this post with a random photo haha

2010-09-24T15:52:00.003+08:00

The day i lost much hair :( in length

got no idea... how much it hurts to part with those gold-yellowish dry ends..
yes,its ugly..but im used to it brushing my lower arms.. the warmth it provided me and the hard times it went through with me..now its all gone.. :(

and Food can do so much comfort.
however, the comforting didn't last long..

decided to try something different..
thai cuisine :)
the food was damn gooood!
my tom yam fried rice !! very delicious! Mmmmm!
we also ordered the pineapple fried rice.. and a pot of seafood Tom yam soup

will definitely go back there for the soup and tom yam fried rice!
ughh..the thought of it makes my stomach growls.

2010-09-24T15:37:00.003+08:00

yummm

2010-09-22T17:18:00.000+08:00

Moonless Mid Autumn.

2010-09-02T01:08:00.005+08:00

FATBOY likes biscuit ♥

i bought him Milk and Strawberry flavored biscuit and he keeps beggin for it ever since.

Fatboy's messy crib..
i think he desperately need to be groom...by someone professional..
i mean just look at him...and there is nothing i can do about it..
he gets very stressed up everytime i try to clean him..

2010-09-01T23:53:00.004+08:00

Fun Day Fun people ♥

took this photo upon arrival
haha..a candid shot of yiong & Hoi!

went to watch Step up 3D earlier today.. awesome!

then we chilled at Scape.

Jieyiong's sweet Polaroid! ♥

nice...

the Gonzalez LOL!

haha Hoi's expression!

some of my favorite pictures from today..
i didn't upload the unglam ones...coz im the super the ugly the.

Jieyiong ♥

Dine at Botak's

i heart today :)

2010-08-24T01:14:00.002+08:00

Egg Tarts & Durians!

look! heartshaped Durians :)

2010-08-22T21:54:00.001+08:00

@ SSC

went Sembawang shopping center
Checked out the Pet's lover there and bought some biscuit for Fatboy, my pet bunny ♥
also spotted this super chubby ham ..so cute!

had our meal at this certain Hong Kong cafe.. not Xin Wang..

like their beef kwayteow and this barley thingy dessert..
i never liked barley.. but this one as a whole is still acceptable..tasted mild and nice..
but i still don't like barley..
geez what am i saying..?

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

2010-08-11T15:13:00.000+08:00

2010-08-04T00:55:00.002+08:00

FREAKING LOIKE THIS DRESS TO DEATH ♥

2010-08-04T00:05:00.002+08:00

Plans

i gotta save up , seriously.
so have been taking up odd jobs..could hardly cope. but am very determine.
i just need a certain amount in my bank..

learning to be independent.. sadly, only figure i had to at this age. so embarrassing.

shall straighten and trim my hair....soon. god i look like garbage..

take up piano , guitar courses and learn basic French , Japanese and Korean Language.

continue my driving license

Single and shall stay that way...for now.

aiming for 49kg.. in a month's time.

i might change my blog link anytime now... theburnjournal.blogspot.com kinda grew out of this acid thingy... im not as acidic now as i was in the past..

will create another blog just for my own viewing pleasure LOL
in it.. i will blog about my everyday thoughts of him.. and whatnots.. things that i can't seem to forget.. perhaps i will slowly erase our memories as i blogged it out.
it's so easy for people to say..but i love him..and that's all i really know.
sure, he's a jerk... but the thought of him still makes me smile.
and i thought i wasn't myself after i knew him... im actually so stupid to like a person that's akin to what most girls would call Bastard.

i have the most stupid/foolish/silly thoughts...like:
i don't mind going through it again..and i will do better.
it must have been me that drove him away..
i thought i hate him..but i was just trying to..i couldn't. at all.
i will tell him i just want to be by his side... and he doesnt have to do anything.
i will be his friend after all that happened...
i didn't regret it all..i just am thankful i met him.

i know...this is what love can do to you.
i looked down on myself too.. how crazy to have such thoughts.
probably im just saying this because..i haven't got the chance to really know him..or actually possess him fully..

unfortunately.. it won't happen again. and i will never treat or love another boy this way again
that's for sure.

2010-08-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

At VIVO

Watched Street Dance and lunch-ed at Marche :)

2010-07-29T23:27:00.002+08:00

I hate the thought of being common/like the rest or own things that is common that any tom dick or harry could have..

like iphone.
i really like that phone.. but i won't be surprise if a toilet cleaner owns one.
geez....anyways, i got it..thinkin that i will surely be thrilled and happy about my new phone.
no. i wasn't at all.. felt horrible to carry something that is sooo fucking common.

i had no choice .. if im going to get a phone i might as well get the one that is the best.. in my view iphone is not only good..it's got the best exterior too.
im not gadget savvy kind of girl..so I didn't use my phone to it's fullest potential ..ugh and that upsets me as well.

the worst part is ..after purchasing iphone 3gs.. in less than 24 hours fucking iphone 4g is out.
fuckkk....
i don't intend to get iphone4g though.. 3gs looks better..
fuck because if iphone 4g is out.. 3gs will be cheaper..much more cheaper..right?
dammit damn all!

2010-07-28T15:25:00.003+08:00

I WANT♥

bowler hat :)
cept..i cant find it anywhere in this lame place -.-

Dr mart!!!!

TOMS!!!

2010-07-26T17:25:00.006+08:00

sudden urge to get one...

2010-07-25T15:42:00.001+08:00

JB-ed last Friday ♥
with classmates
and that is Jieying!Rauf (fatboy!) and Calvin :)

stole the pictures from Jieying's blog heh~

we went there for movie. lol
as the tickets were alot more cheaper there.. we take on two movies at one go!
watched Despicable Me and the Sorcerer's apprentice.

we had Laksa for lunch
well, a pretty late lunch i will say. but still enjoyable.
Calvin and Rauf totally make us laugh like crazy..

after watching Despicable me..we went for some Donuts ♥
yes!! i loooooooove Donuts! but the one i like was sold out :(
anyways..i was so excited..i just went ahead ordering all 12 flavors..forgetting about my friends preference.. fortunately, Calvin is like me..we eat everything.. Rauf only dislike the Durian flavor which we make him finish the whole thing! and Jieying only dislike the Strawberry flavored donut.

What's interesting eating donuts? we shared it..and we played a game..having the loser to have a bite of the donuts that we picked for them..and if they don like it..they will still have to eat it..
im pretty fine with that...until Jieying suggest everyone to lick the donut and the loser must finish that donut which is covered in saliva!!! omg...and so unlucky!! i lost!!! i grossed/chicken out

time pass real quickly when we're having fun...
and soon it's time to go home..

oh..i almost forgot..Sorcerer's Apprentice was great

[FULL HD MV] 남자라서 - 거미 (Since You're A Man - Gummy)

2010-07-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

2010-07-14T12:22:00.003+08:00

Got addicted to Kaichou wa Maid- sama.
thanks to animax i got a new favourite..
Inuyasha is still my number one thou...

but watching all this anime..
with perfect lookin male character plus their totally cute and gentlemanly personality
i couldn't help but feel sad... because after all , i know how the real guys are..they are nothing like that. not even close. Even when they claim they like you... they wouldn't go through all that hassle just to be with you...
and when you tell them how nice if they could behave this way (your desired way) they will only rebut saying this : that only happen in fairytale. And in reality there is no fairytale. wake up.

like thanks uh.. i mean if you want the girl , shouldn you put in more effort.. but then again nowadays most girls don't play hard to get anymore..maybe that's why guys are so complacent .
so , i have guy friends that are like that..so they tell me how they treat their girl"s" andd i guess im lucky to be attached to my partner. Daniel. coz he's nothing like that.. he didn't love me the way i wanted..but he love all he could..gave his all. my only complain ... and only barrier is me.

yesterday he said this to me " if you like someone else, let me know... i will release you"
he meant that he will stay with me even though i didn't love him.. and he will stay with me until i find someone that will take care of me...
i felt horrible.. coz that person isn't him..coz i already like someone else..but he only exist right here, in my heart.
in reality..i can never be with him ever again..coz he left me. he played with my feelings.
he is a bastard..but i still miss him.. think of him.. i still want him..

at that instant..i thought i should just leave.. you must be wondering why didn i since i already can't love him.. i know i must leave him.. coz if i don't ..im using him.. if i don.. im the one playing with his feelings.. but no.. i tried..i did..
i tried..

but it's so hard...
hurting him is the last thing i want.. and i wish i could die when i see him in pain, because of me.
i wish i can take all his pain away..
but what else can i do..i couldn't control my feelings..i wish the person i love is him and not that bastard.

2010-07-12T17:25:00.000+08:00

Visited FATBOYS

with partner.

Mmmm.. speechless.

10bucks for a jug...

i must be drunk to post this picture of myself -.-

gross.

2010-07-10T23:58:00.002+08:00

10 JULY ♥

out with my BFF Weiny and Yeow wen

taking pictures with Gru and his team haha!
i love this yellow bean-like character! the way they talk and their actions!! aww~

initial plan :wanted to get the Knight and Day tixs but the only slot for the day was selling fast already.. hard to believe but we left for lunch

Lunch at Marche
Mmmmm..

BFF's cheese ravioli .. it's yummy!

my vegetable Pasta.. lol decided to go healthy? maybe?

Wen's Rösti with some spring onions,pork sausage and sour cream.
i never ordered this when i go Marche..coz it's uhm..just shredded potato..
haha but hey.. i steal some from Wen..and it didn't taste that bad.

Wen's delicious crepe! and my strawberry lemonade! superb!

Dessert: BFF ordered choco mint and maple flavored Ice cream. sinful but awfully goood.

I ordered strawberry bread pudding.
(you notice there's a lot of strawberries in our menu, apparently it was strawberry season so yay to strawberry day)

and i didn't stop there..hahah i also ordered this Meringue tart thingy.

whoops.. i ordered two dessert for myself..fatty.
but I shared both with BFF and Wen.
well, if you know me... you will know..dessert is the most essential, most important part of the meal..it not only complete the whole meal but also signifies the joy of eating. I must say, the best is save for last.

Later, an unexpected friend of weiny came to join us.
his name is Anthony. nice guy :)
We walked aimlessly and ended up at Long John. food again..
i was too bloated.. i couldnt even take a sip of coke.

and here's us at Long John..

Classic luh Wen! credits to BFF :)

Then from, Long John we went over to Plaza Sing's Starbucks..
lol!

chill relax chill relax..

i like this picture of me..credits to BFF.

credits to Wen.

Group photo Fail...

hmmm.. i kinda like Wen's pose.
im probably lookin at some hot dude? nah~ just kiddin..
i forgot what caught my attention..

anyways it was a fun day out with them :)

2010-07-01T23:58:00.000+08:00

Well, the moment i opened my eyes..i felt lonely..
i didn't feel like going to school..reluctantly , i dragged myself out of bed
started preparing and when i was done..i just can't bring myself to step out of the house.
instead i helped myself with a few slices of bread and see what's on mtv..
after awhile, i decided to flip through the papers and saw.. Eclipse was out!
so figured that it's a weekend and i need to be quick on bookin my tickets..
booked it online.. two tickets for me and beee.

I think of all episodes, Eclipse is the best.
sigh..few tears..here and there..
i felt like it's so hard to choose between two guys..and it's so sad to watch the other one got hurt.
who will you choose if yor Bella?

and Jacob is really super hot..all his scenes took my breath away..
and Bella was so beautiful.. i like the coldness she emits...although in this episode she looks more lively compared to the previous twilight sagas.
ugh..i was all emotional throughout the whole show..
felt sorry for Jacob..

but overall it was amazing...

2010-07-01T00:06:00.002+08:00

Grey hours.
Although we weren't close before...
and i don't know how to express the lost i felt..
and i don't know how to comfort those that's crying
but i will always remember the way you smile and the bubbly person you were.
rest in peace.

Attended a friend's wake yesterday.
never thought there will be such a day..and certainly never expect to reunite with my secondary mates in this kinda situation.
i can't bring myself to look at her..at that motionless state..i couldn't.
she will never smile again..that thought just made me feel...terrible.
im sorry..i can't even bid a proper goodbye.

grey clouds cast above me..
after you stole my heart..

2010-06-25T20:12:00.002+08:00

Am at my new "home" right now.
like omg! heh heh finally got my own space, with no one naggin or staring..
i finished cleaning the whole house , a huge sense of accomplishment.
finally i did something that made me happy.
and i think this is by far the most housework i ever did in my whole entire life...

now all is left to do is..some grocery shoppin and settling my fatboy in here :)
the environment here is really not bad..the way i liked it.
it's got a sprawling grassland at the back of the flat which kinda make it windy and cooling here..
and i bet fatboy will enjoy hoppin around there :)

There's a Daiso and Giant around here which made me really happy and excited..coz i loooove
to go to this kinda places..omg ..i sound like a home maker..but really im just..uh it's my interest.. that's all.

okay...im so chirpy right now, i can't stop talking and can't describe how happy i am..
however im quite disturbed by the fact that there is many kids living around here and those monkeys makes loud pounding sound everytime they run..every thud sound they make, makes my nerve twitch and blood bubble..what is wrong with them..why can't they stop running and jumping!!even for just 5 minutes!!?
guess the ceilings here are a tad too thin..

ok , on a totally unrelated note
I kinda like the weather now...chilly.
very good to have hot piping soup..yums.
and how i wish this could go on for a long time. :)
anyways...the weather was so good... i slept and over slept till i didn't attend school
and this kinda defeat the purpose of me living near to my school...

ohhh , i had rice today...for the first time after months..
well, if you know me..you will know i hate rice..cept for fried rice,all yellow and eggy.
today, i had ginger rice..not bad..that's my first and last meal for today.
im done...full already..til now.
wanted to whip up some eggs to eat but now i think i can forget it...
recently im crazy for eggs...i was so crazy i bought a carton home.
so i have enough to make different style of egg dish.

zomg..
im a pig.

2010-06-25T13:27:00.000+08:00

2010-06-25T12:08:00.002+08:00

What's wrong with me..?

my horrible habit of skippin class is back..and i don't know if it is staying.

i don't feel good.

i've finally moved out.

i read something by chance while surfin the net...felt like someone just throw a pail of ice water on my face..

Why is it that guys are always nice to other girls?
Shy & ambitious, 20: Its not true. Guys are only nice to pretty girls because we are guys.

Self-sufficient, 23: Hot girls specifically, because we are wired that way

Nonsensically witty, 24: To make their girlfriends jealous.

Fat ass, 33: That’s because he’s an asshole, run.

Caring, 42: Can be nice to girls, it’s my nature what and that doesn’t mean I’m a flirt. A guy should be nice to girls cause we respect them. I’m only nice to them if rhey’re my wife’s friends

from now onwards i shall programm my mind this way..

unusually nice..means asshole.

2010-06-21T01:07:00.001+08:00

gorgeous in red
must watch Jonah Hex.

2010-06-19T03:02:00.000+08:00

caught a midnight movie at Vivo with the gang ;)
it was awesome..
didn't get to chill after that as i went into a coma as soon as i get into the car.
so Daniel decided to send me home.

Daniel's friend was really nice..she drove us home..and it was quite an experience..
you see, she just got her license..and the ride was bumpy and crazy.. but i like ;)

2010-06-17T22:09:00.003+08:00

I wanna watch this!!!
and i can't wait.
i always think Steve Carell got a funny voice!
omg..Especially when he stars as Evan the news anchor from Bruce Almighty..
laugh until my stomach pain..

this yellow bean like characters are just so cute!

2010-06-17T22:03:00.001+08:00

I won't see you tonight.

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and loved

Building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me,
You're not the one to place the blame
As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and most of all I loved
But I can't see myself that way
Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

So far away, I'm gone.
Please don't follow me tonight
And while I'm gone everything will be alright

No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight

2010-06-17T21:45:00.002+08:00

Katy Perry from California gurls Music Vid.
kinda like this look...
and the video is like my ideal kind of world.

2010-06-14T22:47:00.001+08:00

obviously she is more important...
you get so emotional and affected by her small action..
and me? im the reject..only when you are free you think of me..
that hurts a lot.

2010-06-13T19:25:00.002+08:00

they say there's a god..
watching over us
and we gotta believe in something in life.
i never did..cuz if you're real..you'd know i am not happy with my life.
i want to believe in you...
i used to pray for good things..
but it didn't happen..
now im praying again..
for a different reason..

so please make this happen..
i want her to burn in hell..
i want her dead...

and after she gets what she deserve
with everyone against her safe
i will change..
i will try to be kind.
make her my last victim.
end all my agony tonight...forever.

ECP

2010-06-09T03:11:00.006+08:00

6 June Sunday ECP.

went picnic with my partner and his friends...
sort of a picnic.. lol
i didn't prepare anything as it was last minute.

Finally got to ride on his DRZ again..

on our way to ECP...my task was to take pictures of them..
aiiya...the heat was unbearable.. bloody sweltering out there.

sigh~ when he look good.. i look like crap
when i look good..he look like crap.

Hi~

Daniel & Miaa

"our kid" (:
.
.
.
for the day.

Daniel's friend's daughter luh...haha
for the first time...i wasn't bothered being around a toddler...
i mean if you know me..you will know that i hate kids..
but this one is really unique and quite adorable... she don't cry or talk much..and is very intelligent
she can also swear like me.
like non stop.. LOL
i thought it's quite cool to swear at this tender age..
of coz..i didn't taught her how to swear luh..plus i bet she doesn't even know what she's saying..

got wasted. Carl's Junior. Home.

2010-06-08T01:16:00.003+08:00

Korean BBQ feast.

if you are a full fledged meat lover..like a wild carnivore
lol..i think this place will be good for you..

finally i visited this place
i wanted to come so badly..but when i was there..i realized i couldn't eat that much.
anymore.

i used to eat like a fat carnivore..
but i kinda lost that ability....

anyways..it was satisfying.
you get all kinds of marinated meat you can think of and veggies to go along with your meat..
i prefer to wrap my meat like the korean style.
there's also various kinds of kimchi..and soup.
mmmmm.

2010-06-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

The Story Teller

told me that i could find my happiness there
i walked the path to find there is no there.

words are empty
when i put away those sugarcoated words..
everything makes more sense..
everything is nothing
nothing is real.

sometimes i wonder to myself living or dead doesn't make a difference i stay alive hoping that someone could change my mind but in the end they all turned out to be the same things turn from bad to worst i let it repeat again so why am i still alive why am i living to witness people hurting me everyday one after another how many times must i go through this i look at myself i can't tell whether im still alive like a living dead

2010-06-04T20:56:00.005+08:00

acting is a skill
lying is a skill
directing it all is a skill
making others believe is altogether another skill

are you scared?
because that's what i want you to believe...

-if a relationship can't move forward , it withers.
________________________________________________________________
the occasional rants ..

im so bloody disappointed today :(
the dress that i like ..the Toga dress..they only have it in M and L
i know right...wtf.
im literally in love with it..i think of it day and night..
i just want to have it...i don care...
and my mom have to be such a wet blanket by saying i won't wear it..so refuse to buy
yes, it won't be appropriate to wear it to school or anywhere (cept for big events/functions and clubs) coz im not one of those air head..that wears cocktail dress and heels to school?mad.
but i just need it to be in my collection!..it completes my collection...
Nooooo...i will wear it...im sure.

Then, the heels that caught my eyes also don't have the right size.. :(

There's so many things i want...

etc :(

2010-06-03T03:57:00.004+08:00

Not Swimming alone..

after swimming, had a slab of creamy sin. =..=

2010-06-01T02:47:00.007+08:00

im Exhausted.

crap.
im not enjoying this short break at all...
coz shit happens..
i have to go back to that hell hole to do my FYP every single fucking day , cept for weekends.
how fuck is that... fuck!

:(

but today...i decided to just leave half way through that lame shit and go watch shrek
FINALLY..i watch SHREK!!
it was maximum awesome! awesome! awesome!!!!!

want this dres

2010-05-28T00:36:00.003+08:00

I don't know how to describe how im feeling right now...
so fucked...
im suppose to be in bed..like hours ago...but i didn't want to
because im fucking crazy to actually go check my stupid FB account..and unexpectedly saw a friend request from someone long ago...that only lives in my memory..
no, why am i reacting this way?

im so tired...but i couldn't go to sleep :(

why am i so affected by what i saw?

zomgg..wtf.
it's been half a decade!
i can't believe...i still ....

he haven't change at all
same hair..same smile..same person that i ____so much..

2010-05-26T23:44:00.004+08:00

Tonight.
the moon is full again..
hanging ..portraying a past i refuse to remember.

and i looked upon it...
feeling more lonely than ever.

tell me what did you do to me?

i can't tell what's real anymore..
i don't trust my six sense..
don't believe what i think,what i see or hear..

comfort food...i want
xiaolongbaoxiaolongbaoxiaolongbaoxiaolongbaoxiaolongbaoxiaolongbaoxiaolongbaoxiaolongbaoxiaolongbao
xiaolongbaoxiaolongbaoxiaolongbaoxiaolongbaoxiaolongbaoxiaolongbaoxiaolongbaoxiaolongbaoxiaolongbao

penutbutterpenutbutterpenutbutterpenutbutterpenutbutterpenutbutterpenutbutterpenutbutterpenutbutter
penutbutterpenutbutterpenutbutterpenutbutterpenutbutterpenutbutterpenutbutterpenutbutterpenutbutter
just like that...plain and simple

2010-05-25T23:07:00.002+08:00

when you are his favorite...
he place you at the top of his list..
happiness seems promising..
until his new favorite shows up..

easily delete you from the list..
you don't even have a place in the recycling bin..
as if nothing happened..
your existence, your feelings.. is not of his concern anymore

2010-05-25T11:02:00.000+08:00

是我不好

formspring.me

2010-05-21T23:54:00.007+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/SamanthaFoxx

after much hesitation...i have decided to have anonymous people asking me questions
because...im always bored in class..so please surprise me everyday..

usually i like to keep away..but this is kinda fun..
although im expecting some mean comments/perverted questions/no question at all.

2010-05-16T23:34:00.003+08:00

Some random thoughts.

hhhurr..bounce back to square one after putting in so much effort...

yay! found a job...

must learn to accept what i can't change.

public pool is quite alright..though i still think it's dirty from all the fluid that's coming from people.
i mean..i saw people spitting and blowing their nose...right then and there..eewww how gross.
but i need the pool! dammit.

whats wrong with youngsters nowadays?
i know im a spendthrift myself...but i spend it on something that is at least tangible/practical.
whatssup with clubbing shitz? what's so fun there?
to get hook up? find one night stand,perhaps? or to check if yor that attractive?
err apparently..there's too much people sardined in there that no one will actually notice you.
i mean how decent a person can you be anyways..
ugh..i got so much mean things to say about this punks..but fuckin no mood now.

omg..i lose my ability to keep myself warm..my body is cold intolerant now. :(
why? is it because my sun left me? hate this.

im walkin around with this face -..-
must be really unhappy...why cant i be as happy as that girl over there..?
smiling at her mobile...upon receiving a text..
giggling away as the boy beside her teases her..
blushing..while the boy present her nothing but just a keychain/handphone charm.
the one and only..one of a kind gift in the world and she got it..
did he give it to her without much thought? is he going to smash and shatter that good blissful moment?
how come it feels like i have been there before...and now it's just a reflection..blurry
tinted and cracked..
but even with it lookin that bad..the cracks still can't erase the whole picture..
ugh...cant let this continue...the urge of diggin my nails into my skin is getting stronger.
i blame myself.not you.

i give my heart to you..i give my heart...cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

don't ever say you can be my everthing..don't say that, because i already know you can't

i like this quote:Humor, it's said, is like a rubber sword--it allows you to make a point without drawing blood.

2010-05-14T21:47:00.003+08:00

A Nightmare on Elm Street..
as long as you stay awake...
i wanna watch this too!

waiting for your return Daniel!
so we can go watch all this movie together :)

'Killers' Trailer HD

2010-05-12T14:04:00.000+08:00

2010-05-12T13:47:00.004+08:00

Anticipating :)

Never fail to make me laugh everytime i watch this trailer...
Dad:"she's a single woman..all alone"
Jennifer's reaction:"recently..not always alone"
HAHAHAAA...respond so readily lor...
and OMG Ashton Kutcher is sooooo fucking cute!!
"i work for the blah blah blah..and they give me the license to BLAH!"
im laughing already.
"it's gonna be a long day"
feels like me and Daniel.
im so clumsy and clueless nowadays..
some chronic disease or something? :/

awww you fuzzy fat ball :D
can't wait can't wait!

a 10 going for a 5?..... :(
im saying the guy i like is a 5...definitely a 5 or less..in and out.

2010-05-10T22:10:00.005+08:00

I wish we....
could live like this.....................................................................
wish i could hold you again...
wish it was you i see when i open my eyes in the morning....
then i will smile like her

if only..

2010-05-10T13:58:00.005+08:00

♥超人不会飞

他长得不怎么样
但在我眼中他很特别
他带给我的快乐就像草莓冰淇淋
沉默也会让我偷笑
也像冰淇淋,很快就溶掉
消失...没了..不再回来了
自能怪我没福气

我的超人不会飞

and he whispered "cause im no superman and i hope you like me as i am."

am i that difficult to be with

2010-05-07T23:49:00.004+08:00

being unusually talkative.

haven't really blog for quite sometime...
well it's already coming to the fourth week of school
and shockingly i only skipped school twice..i went for talks, complete my assignments..
and im kinda impressed with my progression in school...considering my conduct before was so horrible.
im really thriving for results and to meet my goals...although im really drained by school and my naughty pet rabbits...pee and shit pee and shit..and can really eat off all my allowance. sigh~

Anyways, today is quite an awful/bizarre day.
first! i forgot there's lab class..and obviously forgot my lab coat and long pants.. wtf man.
i really like lab classes :(
then i couldn't attend class at all...because of the fact that i wore wrong attire and forgot my lab coat..so i have no business in school...
so as i was on my way back to the woodlands interchange...i had to walk quite a distance right?
so happen i walk pass this HDB flat that is facing the road...so it was quite open and there are cars and people right?...i was walking alone..and day dreaming...when suddenly this man popped out from no where..and flashed his fucking penis at me!! in public!!...there are people walking.. but for some fucking reason..all of them are not lookin at this man!? there's this girl that's just few steps ahead of me...and she's like texting away..and unaware. stupid girl.
my reaction was ..really fucked!
because i was still day dreaming...i took quite sometime to process...i just stare for a while then realize what is actually happening.. and i fucking SAW it...i saw it omg!!i can feel myself screamin inside..but i was really calm on the outside..i rolled my eyes at him and looked away and pretend i didn't see anything...and walked away...
he looked perfectly normal...but fuck him!
fuck..i saw..pubic hair..the whole package! fucking shit...fucking fucking shit! the man is sick lor..when i saw him.. he still can sway his hips and lick his lips(rhymes lol) ...wtf?!then i cannot fucking erase that image lor...it's like for real..it's the real thing goddammit! sooooooo gross!
i swear...i will never never get married for sure!
idk why i say that...but i believe..marriage will make me see that horror again!
the thought of it just sends goosebumps all over me.

.......................................okay.
at that moment..i really wish someone was there to calm me down..
then i realize..no one needs me when they don't need my help.
they only come to me when they needed some sort of help.
so when i need help...there's no one.
im sick of playing the good guy...
why are you so selfish...and can't reflect on yorself?

i went to my dental appointment alone...
i think this loneliness made me feel sad...so it affected my mood..and i didn't eat at all..yes the whole day.
i didn't have the appetite for anything...there's so many delicious food that passed my way..
from my favorite sushi to ice cream...i didn't even struggle which to buy..i just walked away..
the whole day...and believe it or not...im not even hungry now...my stomach didn't even protest..
so that's how bad today is....but i did a lil retail therapy to cheer myself up..but im still feeling down.

i just feel so sad and empty...
how come some people are really rotten yet they can have many friends...
they gossip,scheming..they are selfish..some only talk about themselves...and never stop to listen..so self - absorbed and so consumed by the emotions they 're having...
what?! you alone sad uh? compare your case...with mine..your's is nothing lor..and when i shared mine with you! you also hack care hack care...wake up luh! your's not even close to start line.

everytime i speak..i have to rush through it..so that i can finish what i have to say..i have to repeat myself..because the person is not listening...i have to raise my voice because when i speak..she fucking interrupt.im sick of it so that's it.

the word friend will not be used anymore.
there's no such thing as friend... it's merely people trading kindness
or people investing on others...

i can rely on no one...there's no home ..no family nor friends..
what should i do?
i don't know if i am strong enough to take such shit...
sometimes..the urge of ending it all is really strong...
but im so afraid.....

Correction: appears that there's still friends that care :)
Si min and Wen Thanks. of coz not to forget Daniel. If his around he will be #1 but his in Taiwan now...so fuck all the rest... you are all the same bitch whore slut!

2010-05-05T21:29:00.002+08:00

WATCHED.

Cute couple.

On the day it premieres booked tickets online straight away
full house at the Grand Cathay .

Hot middle age guy ♥
i think the villian, Ivan Vanko was cool and fearless..
"i want my buuurd." LOL

Ip man 2 was really good!
respectable man...and got my favorite Huang Xiao ming!!
the ang mohs inside are really mean and obnoxious.

got me like omgosh...so in love...
sexy from the head to toe~

this actress playing his wife...is soo tall.. lol
taller than him.

2010-05-05T10:41:00.003+08:00

ahem!
the last thing you want to see when you walk into the classroom is a FATBITCH resting her mother fucking fat feet on yor chair...with that double chin dangling with confidence!
and just look at you like it's her right to do that..coz her legs toooo heavy!! tooo heavy to rest on floor!!!
yeah with her huge extra large size sandals!
fucking walking lard...fuck you upside down you fucking no manners fat fugly monster beast..
fatso jumbo mumbo dirty oily jibye smelly worthless fucking shit!!!
GO! END! YOR! LIFE! so fat already!! what you expect? FATBOYS ALSO WANT THIN GIRLS YOU FATHER FUCKING WHORE!

Guhhh!! im so pissed right now...
like soooo fucking pisss!!!
WHAT THE FUCKK!
FUCKIN STINKIN FAT BITCH!!!! FUCK YOU!!!
WTFFFFF!!!!
FUCKKKKKK!

for the love of god...get this vile looking piece of LARD out of my sight!!!
fucking mother fucking fat shit!!!! you look like shit smell like shit ...size of elephant poo.. go africa and feed the starving kids...you ugly meatball!!!
what the fuck...cant even behave like a normal human! practicing basic manners...?
you human waste ..
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
how dare you...sooo fat yet so proud about yor whole lard body!!!

this is my life...crossing roads with all this smelly Fat SHIT!!
fuck you all...!!

fucking Fatfuck..and still dare to flaunt yor thighs..
knnbcjb

i think i got this deep hatred for Fat people..
minus my fat friends.

im suppose to treat you kind..coz you in some way looked handicapped.
i always try to say nice things when im around fat people!
but that's it!!!!
im just gonna say what i wanna say in yor face!
all this new fat people i see in class!!!
fuck all of you!! block my way...fat object! obstacle!
especially the fucking indian one and the fucking whatever eurasian.. fuck you..
you are just a fat eurasian!
gonna fucking stop talking to fat people!
especially this proud jibye in front of me! block my sunlight!

2010-05-02T21:45:00.001+08:00

-only in times of trouble we see who's really by you.
blacklist all the useless crap.

2010-05-02T19:02:00.003+08:00

i don't want to do this...
but they constantly remind me of how much i hate them..

im a prick.im unwanted.
i have to stay and watch how you love my siblings.
open my eyes wide to witness this everyday.
wake up to hear you bad mouthing me.
i have to watch how much you hate me.
everything i do is wrong in your eyes..
i hate who i am
what gave birth to me
and the place im living in

why don't you just end my life?

some people should just shut up and be contented with their fucking life and stop whining about how bad it is as if taunting me.
what else you want?
you are so selfish. self obsess.and i don care anymore.

no wonder nobody sticks with you...
hot and cold is expected.
coz you are just unreliable when someone calls for you.

2010-04-29T22:28:00.002+08:00

current ♥

The Pretty Reckless - Make Me Wanna Die + Lyrics + Download

2010-04-28T00:24:00.000+08:00

2010-04-27T12:17:00.002+08:00

counting down religiously every single day/hour/week
now i’m counting down to 4.30pm and every monday i’ll count down to friday and i just can’t wait for my next holiday!! ):
i dislike school.

love this song to death.
Take me I'm alive
I'll never be good enough
You make me wanna die
And everything you love will burn up in the light
Your eyes
everything in your eyes
Every time I look inside your eyes
I'm burning in the light

there's a new moon on the rise

i guess what i mean to say is...

2010-04-25T23:26:00.003+08:00

Ranting..no?

it's been one whole month taking care of my two bunnies.
and i must admit they are only cute to look at..and lookin after them is as hard as handling a new born infant..

really tedious job...
am i complaining? lol.. idk..
im not cut out for this..but im ready to face whatever shiz they give me.
because i love them.

now my body is mostly covered with fresh scratches/scratch marks...
mostly by the Fat boy..coz i like to cuddle him.
i used to be the one giving people those scratches..
now i got a taste of my own medicine..and it really hurts!

anyways...having said that i love them..i will forgive them.
so here's a short clip of me and the fat boy.

im not molesting him luh..
i just want to keep him in the trance state.
if i stop touching him..he will do a sudden flip and scratch my thighs... lol

2010-04-25T15:41:00.002+08:00

April 19 watched

Date night
down right hilarious!
i like it when Steve says "it's a kill shot!!"

24 April watched

Kick ass is one violent movie and it was awesome!
makes my emotion fluctuate wildly.

i love hit-girl best...
she's so cool at a young age.

2010-04-25T15:21:00.001+08:00

Finally....something that caters to all my needs.

2010-04-23T16:16:00.002+08:00

my heart is poisoned by you, dear mercury.
now you know why Virgo guys are jerk.

At first it seems that he can keep up with your spending habits and your way of thinking & life style. But after sometime he shows his true self and he become a deceiver,forsakes and is cheap and stingy.

He never really lies but he deceives,intentionally. Make others misunderstood him as the goody person whenever he’s not or done something wrong. He was very affectionate, caring, loving & think for his future wellness. However,his cheapness, cowardliness leads to his irresponsibility character, easily influenced thoughts.

Virgo guy is egoistic & calculative, they’ll only do things or give help after they calculate their benefits & future assurance. In doing so, they’ll deceive you as if they’re sincere.

Virgo guys will prefer to run away and find a sanctuary (be unfaithful) than to face & solve any problems. However, their ego will deny this and with their fussy state of mind will plot a cunning scenario as a path to run away and yet give others impressions as if they’re innocent. They can easily be unfaithful behind your back as if nothing has happened.

Fire signs never go for a Virgo. you will regret letting him into your life.

like omfg right...so fucking true. -..-

2010-04-22T23:04:00.002+08:00

im happy to know you...
but goodbye forever.

cheer me up....

omg Tom Cruise!! seriously? wtfug...
Leonardo DiCarprio and Keanu Reeves super cute.

2010-04-22T21:28:00.002+08:00

Signs A guy is a Loser
should just discard immediately -..-

Doesn't listen
If someone loves you, they want to listen to your needs and want to know how you're feeling. It's not normal for a guy to not listen to you, if he cares about you.
If they don't seem interested in your thoughts, worries, dreams, goals, then they aren't someone you can make a life with :(
Your family or friends dislike him
Your family and friends are able to see warning signs that someone in the relationship can't see (or will ignore). Beware if everyone's telling you he isn't as great as you think he is. They aren't being mean-- they are being honest, and unlike your judgment, theirs is not clouded by the emotions of infatuation.
'Loves' you too quickly
Guys that fall in love fast-- also fall out of love fast. If he's shallow, he'll be quick about telling you how much he loves you-- even if you've not been dating long.
Some abusive men will say "I love you" to try to trap a women into a relationship. Telling you they love you too quickly is a bad sign that he's either shallow and doesn't know what true love is (which can take months or years to form, after both partners know each other), or he's trying to hook you so you won't leave.
A normal person will wait a good amount of time before they commit or love another person.
This type of loser guy may want to move in with you or marry you in a matter of weeks! :(
Lacks effort
He doesn't seem to put much work into the relationship and your happiness. He doesn't call you back, he might forget important dates like your birthday. He may buy you presents that are cheap, thoughtless, or unwrapped, so he can say he gets you gifts without putting any effort into it. He may not take you out to eat, or put much thought into what makes you happy.
A lot of losers are simply lazy when it comes to a relationship. If they don't put effort into the relationship now, they won't later, either. :(
Physically Violent
If he breaks your things when he's angry, or ever shoves, hits, or hurts you-- you need to dump him immediately!
Men that are violent may start by breaking things or shoving you first, but it can quickly escalate, in some cases even into murder. Do not put up with ever being put in a situation where you could be harmed or killed.