♥Hello strangers ♥ Samantha Fox  Create Your Badge Maybe Hell is a place like Earth. Your favorite Hello and your hardest Goodbye.. ♥Im just a regular girl..that plays around black,grey and white corners. ♥I find my pleasures in your misery/mishaps,rainy days and being alone. ♥I made many mistakes..but you are my loveliest. ♥achilles'heel: lizards/temper/heights/toddlers ♥I can't live without _ _ _ Have fun browsing around here.♥♥♥♥ ♥needs. ♥
to lose 10kg.
to get a hair cut. to get a new phone to paint my room. more cash to go picnic. ♥wanna watch. ♥ ♥Ninja assassin ♥perfect getaway ♥Avatar ♥couples retreat ♥Destinations. ♥
Koh Chang Island
BKK Hongkong Japan ♥sing to me. ♥
♥Applause. |
Friday, December 11, 2009
Change.      i chop it off.. the very dry ends..that is not a lot..but still... like you. no rhyme or rhythm just change.. without any notice.. we became distant he promised it will all end my agony and memories of you.. if mishap falls tonight.. know that..you're the last person i think of and that... i love you. when you go...you took everything away. Thursday, December 10, 2009
   damn love triangle. :/ all i can feel is pain.. all i can hear is yor voice.. don try to talk me out of this.. i just want to live my life this way..   day out with you. movie. food. and im really happy brought home two pairs of shoes and a really nice tattered old lookin cap. lol and my goodness..the weather sucked so bad. thankyou. i realise..no matter how much i tried to escape.. from you and the world..there are times..i think of you..and needed you. when im feeling alone..and when the pain is too much for me to take.. i look around..only you were there..and only you would rescue me.. i regret to give my heart away.. i regret..i couldn't get it back.. but my greatest regret is not being able to let go of you.     now we know why..i look ridiculously fat .. especially my face.. Wednesday, December 9, 2009
  i open my eyes.. only to find myself feeling ever more tragic.. i dislike sleeping.. my dreams aren't sweet...they were as bitter as when im awake.    with this woman... :D im spending more than i could ever earn... and im spending fast :( and im not saving :( and i think im going to hate my mom.. and im thinkin of moving away..because i hate it here. and i like to use the word and kaybye. nomm nomm nomm.. Hullos you, you & you.. yes it's me Piggin out after work again.. (despite all the efforts to lose weight -.- ) with Daniel :) he came to fetch me.. our initial plan was to go marina barrage .. but i was so fucking famished..i had to go feast on something real heavy... something that i've been craving for a long time... something like....beef kway teow.. lol   chopsticks ready!!lol Hungggrrryyyy uhhh!!    uhh...and in case yor curious... this is what they made me wear that day.. and no luh..i don have any back problem.. although it seems like there's a hunch there.. and i wasn't posing.. i was goin to turn around.. and please feel free to get irritated by the over usage of and  Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
junkfood & the pet  it's like i replaced you with chocolate.. i needed it to keep going.. so chocolate..i kept on munching.   the best thing in the world...Eggu tart! ____________________________________________________________ ohh..meiyi came over.. :) we didn do anything much..but it feels like we did alot.. lol and i think her butt is sore..after moving around too much..   you fatty! maybe the rain will never stop...  it just keeps getting darker..everyday    the rain will never stop. tears..will dry eventually. i can't heal.... Sunday, December 6, 2009
supper after work.   Hunggrrryy...! so i ordered.. two plain & one garlic onion egg. lol.. yah i know im gross.. i even wanted to try the godzila milo thing.. but in the end i settled with dinosaur. uhmm...i really should stop my late night supper rubbish :( i dunno how im gonna lose weight...   Thursday, December 3, 2009
 finally :) hilarious and light hearted. from my favorite author.. i started reading his books..since i was eleven? and develop this joy of reading and now..most of them were animated. ♥ Tuesday, December 1, 2009
 what do you expect? it's packed with violence and maybe a little sorrow i liked it... if only pain can really convert into power... feel my heart i think it's still broken...  shu cream puffu! it is sad to know that ..only food can cheer me up and im tryin not to gain weight.. or should i say...im tryin to drop a size or two. help. :( till the next full moon moments that i thought will last till the end will be forgotten... i shall stop mourning for my dead love... and when the wounds reopen.. the calm night sky will cry for me... Sunday, November 29, 2009
  hello Lee Byung Hun!!♥♥♥ need i say more.. *droools* i don't know much about love.. all i know is..i wasn't afraid when it comes to you.. not even when you drooled all over my hand. you are not exactly gorgeous..let's face it, you are not lean,you're still FAT ok not very bright too.. i can't say you come from a well-to-do background can i? im not tryin to insult.. just that..because it's you..im not afraid of anything. as long as you stay by my side.im happy but i don't know how long i can take this shit. Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Dinner,Movie & off to JB♥  awesome ♥ that reminds me...one more month to Christmas.. what will i get this year? i know i haven't been good..but im not that rotten either.. Hello   yes...im round..im fat...  His.♥  Mine.♥ mine looks good right? actual fact..his tasted way better... how come i'm always making the wrong choice :/  Samantha & her ice cream♥    a very candid one indeed.   thanks for taking me away... even for a short while... Tuesday, November 24, 2009
  once again.. im gonna eat back my words and force my blardy ass back there because i fucking overspent :C and it really irritates me when you spell fuck.. F*ck/****/fcuk or whatever okay! you think by censoring the u it will look less a bad word? fuck y'all wretched beings! hate this kind of "goodyjibye" :/ yes..im soooo angry now! i can kill! im so sick of feeling sad and cheated. im not gonna be kind anymore! happiness and love was shared by two but that broken heart and tears only belongs to one..... gonna destroy this face that brought so much pain.. Humor me.       really nice show.. it was like..i was there. now... even dressing up is a chore.. i don't feel like doing anything... i just wanna stay home..and stay away. Sunday, November 22, 2009
if breaking up is this painful...i never want to go through it..again. we both held on to each other and cried for the longest time. i could only think of how much pain i brought you. but still..you uttered those forgiving words. i hurt you countless .. what im going through now is nothing compared to what you went through for me. so,i will forever resent myself. i won't let anyone hurt me.. i won't hurt anyone. you are right...i don't know what i want..because i want everything i rather be alone...and to watch the one i love go away with happiness. i will be alone. how i wish i can just shit you out. piece of king shit. jerkjerkjerkjerkjerk. :C  Friday, November 20, 2009
The ultimate level is when you learn how to smile at sadness   sometimes..i can really surprise myself .. still beating for you. Wednesday, November 18, 2009
but when i need you the most..where are you? you said you would lend me yor ears.. im talking about you..my friend. went supper with zhixiong yesterday... i then realise..im way behind time. omgosh. Tuesday, November 17, 2009
OMG. came across this vid..and it somehow made me laugh.. omfg..im so fucking retarded..and FAT. i wasn't aware that i was being video-ed anyways..i think it's about one year ago..with meiyi and xl we were playing some card games that requires us to act the word out. i miss playing those games :( Monday, November 16, 2009
Why...  does the weather coincides so much with the way im feeling right now..? Saturday, November 14, 2009
Falling Apart   Hello you well,nothing interesting happened lately.. not interesting enough for me to blog about it... or should i say, i couldn't ..cuz im being watched..... besides trying my bh..best to stay in school... im also busy juggling with stuff my life is bone dry...
if you think im patient..well, im not. that's all you have to know. Friday, November 6, 2009
weather is a bitch. recently my mom made us sleep without air con. can hardly sleep...it's humid...it's warm..it's a nightmare.. too many discomforts. it's so hard to sleep..im yawning more and looked weary ugh..sleep deprived and so... slept in school/class and public transport. i shall enjoy air con when she's not at home. i lone care. thou shalt not hope thou shalt not look thou shalt seek for cure Thursday, November 5, 2009
pictures of you.        by far..my most retarded expression. yes luh..im very happy. me is heart meiyi ♥ kay bye. utter not a single word..even if it hurts.. -struh ekil kcuf Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Bruise im chewing on chillies .. i felt nothing already.. i thought it was suppose to boost my hunger still..i don't feel like eating anything. home..is unbearable.. great..bad things come in chains. i don exactly hate her...but the urge to move out is strong. im gonna go get my haircut.. they say it helps.. idk how true... update: okay..i didn't do anything to my hair. god, is not worth. :( Sunday, October 25, 2009
  omg, i almost died yesterday. the night was hectic..and on top of that my feet was killing me.. i wore my the other shoe..which crushed my toes and because it was a few inch higher... it just amplified the excruciation and i slogged like fuck... Daniel, Wan and me thought we got the easier job as we only have to give instructions and inform the rest to pick up..... !!#@$%$!!* end up..i have to face the most ridiculous task! the whole experience just sucks. and i was craving for mcnuggets the whole time...i was so upset/fucking pissed..!! because we were only released at like fucking 4.30am?? im still craving for mcnuggets..!! but they only sell breakfast. the rest of my moments..was in black and white.. fucking piss!   usually..i hate to blog/talk about work. well, since im on it ..i might as well write my piece. met the pussiest pussy ever! at my new work place. fucking no future...part timer..gets paid 6 bucks/hour just as i am..a male oh wait..or was he a female before? and acted as if it's his father's place.ccb. EH! i so much wanted to tell him that he is the most vulgar thing i ever seen in my life. and that he shares the fate of an old useless cow!...and he's mom might think he's a mistake. no..im not gonna talk about his appearance..coz it scares me..and it scares kids. -.- i so hated myself for not doing so when i've the chance to. ihatemyself!andidonneedanyonetoloveme. although..i don't know him long..i think he's hobby is to talk about work..watch people eat..observe me then pick on me...talk about work..date a girl that grow sacs in between her legs...smell balls...grow balls...grab balls and talk about work!! i mean, it's either you really love to work and couldn't help but share yor fucking passion about it...give lectures and speech about it.. for crying out loud..no body gives a shit... and those who did...good for you..go to hell with him. or you just got nothing better to say right.. off duty also discuss about it... are you lame or are you just pure lame. sigh..i wish that only bad things befall you and those with you...everyday. really bad things...so disturbing..you regret knowing me...so bad..there's blood. and the only reason why im taking my time off..bloggin about this shitass joker..is because someone might answer my prayers. hopefully. okay..im feeling better. seriously man..never in my history that i hated one non-female creature so much! i just refuse to admit that he was a fucking male. it's wrong. he's not. he's a total bitch! maybe im not well exposed. but knowing one of this kind is enough...   a box of gold... morning surprise from Daniel. thank you sweetboy to be exact it's, a box of gold+ double cheezeburger meal+ choco fudge sundae ZOMG! i know right...i always couldn't decide..so what happened was.. i had a hard time..deciding which i should eat first... and i ended up stuffing nuggets in my mouth. i know i look like a pig...eat like a pig..but i...i don't want to be treated like a pig :( i really don't know what to do. don't treat me so good. i'm not worth. ......................................................................................... im not heartless i do envy loving couples. i just can't see myself practicing that. i think they are wild..but at least they know what they want. Saturday, October 24, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
i like this disastrous flick :)   i never plan to watch this show.. but was glad that i did... how will you spend yor last 10minutes of life? what will you do, if you see the one you love stopped breathing? how will you say goodbye...? i knew it...live is evil. it's so fucking fragile. im just really sad that the lifeguard have to fucking sacrifice his life and die for a jerk ....pfffft :l he is soo cute. okay buhbye. Saturday, October 10, 2009
ughh.... Good morning world.. think im sleep deprived my head hurts.... yor just a bad flu...i caught unexpectedly get out of my head you..dammit! Friday, October 9, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
the flight.        post arrival.  still have to take a coach up to KL.  by the time we reached destination..we were all drained out. The Food.♥          i will say ...everything is yummy :)  lastly.. i know... priceless. im back from my trip. (already) -.- for some lame/ridiculous reason..my trip was cut short.. hmmmp..it was suppose to end tmr night.. and i don't intend to return to school just yet. will just start school next week...i guess O'wells... lesson learnt... and maybe i should travel alone next time round. all i need is plenty of cash and my ear plugged in. can't stand babies and noisy/fidgety passengers. note to forgetful-self: the cash will be spend on -contact lens -hair -supplements -piano/yoga fees -room -new cellphone. -body modifications -travel respectively should i move out? if you hate me so much..why don't you let me move out..? is not that i enjoy being like this..all the time.. there are times that i wish i could really laugh.. but i find myself slowly losing myself.. i couldn't communicate normally..or finish a sentence without gettin interrupted by some fucktards! and i find myself..constantly forcing myself to laugh...so that i don't hurt others ego. i am not sure if i can carry on like this... i don think im suitable to be a girlfriend...im not a good one no matter how i look at it. and time doesn't seem to change that fact... exhausted.pleasletmego. living in an empty shell... all i have is myself.. couldn't find the exit... the exit that leads to happiness.. Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
 how much is yor laughter worth? just a random thought. anyways..in case yor curious about my hams hams.. they're currently obsess with tissues and couldn't stop gnawing and abusing the stacks of kleenax i stashed in their crib. i left those there to extra absorb..but these naughty lil'fellas...!! but it's really cute and hilarious to watch when they struggled to bite the shit out of the tissues. LOL ohh and just awhile ago i send their nose sniffing like crazy for eating chipsmore in front of them... haha.. so cute..their eyes engrossed and glued to my cookies.. lest they get an upset stomach...i could only let them 've crumbs of my cookie. that's all. Once again,im on my way to find lost. ♥if only i have a choice.... but i don't... so, i must/will/have to go to school. and to be punctual..dammit. ♥i seem to successfully injected fear into her..but i don really enjoy doing this anymore.. i guess..she's one lucky bastard. cus..im in high spirits..and decided to let it go. (sorli pmy,that im really xing zai ler whor) ♥why am i smiling...? why can't i wipe that smile off my face... this smile haven appear for almost half a decade.... i thought i lost you forever...i thought i couldn't love anymore... till i found a soul like yors. it's lovely.. this feeling but goodbye..i will have to leave you like this before..grim reach you. im happy even if..it's fruitless... at least the memories are mine to keep.. Friday, October 2, 2009
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Hullos,   pretty short update here... ♥sam's counting down to KL trip. already watched Alien's in the attic and it was instant pleasure. and is now,looking forward to Cloudy with a chance of meat bawlssss!! *and that's tmr* expecting a box of gorgeous tasty fragrant lotus paste/durian/ice cream wrapped up in soft snowskin ohh whatever...as long as it's snowskin-ed. kay bye. Saturday, September 26, 2009
but i'm so in love with him.... Lee Min Ho♥ this song really made me felt something..as if it's speaking to me. ♥ i felt weak...and i just want to be alone. on a brighter note..every expression of him in that vid..made me go crazyy.. somehow being indifferent appeals to me. im going crazy~ this sucks. why do i have this kinda vision.. vision that will never happen.. instead of lettin this feelings subside.. i grew hungrier.. |
